Halloween Ghosts and Goblins
I Am No Longer Afraid of the Future
Estimated reading time: 2 minutes, 29 secondsDuring my younger days, my wife and I used to dress up in Halloween costumes. Even after I turned sixty, I continued to join in the fun. In the attached photo, you can see my wife in one of her favorite costumes. The blue jacket she’s wearing is mine, and it holds a special place in my heart as I wore it the day we first met. To this day, I still have that jacket and cherish it dearly. The buttons on the coat were primarily from my collection of historic Presidential campaign buttons. Despite living in a house, we rarely had trick-or-treaters, and now that I live alone in an apartment, I only hear faint sounds of children asking for candy from the store owners.
After the passing of my wife, I realized that Halloween, a holiday about death, now had a much different meaning for me. Instead of simply being a holiday filled with fun and excitement, it became a time of fear and sadness. Seeing ghosts, goblins, and skeletons on display made me acutely aware of the loss I had experienced. While I understand that death is a natural part of life, the once cheerful holiday now felt like a haunting reminder of what I had lost.
It has been two years since I became a widow, and I overlooked the holiday this time. Yesterday, I had to visit the urgent care at my pharmacy, and I walked past the candy aisle without paying attention. When the nurse practitioner asked if I was married, I didn’t feel anxious or experience an increase in my blood pressure. It wasn’t new, and I wasn’t worried about it. In many ways, Halloween 2023 is the beginning of new opportunities!
From the depths of grief, I have emerged more robust and inspired than ever! The love I shared with my wife has given me the courage to stand tall and embrace all that life offers exciting opportunities! After almost thirty months of living alone, I have mastered daily living skills and unlocked the key to happiness and joy! And guess what? I have found love again, and it’s like a dream come true! Every day is filled with anticipation and excitement as I wake up to a life I never thought possible. I am thrilled to discover all the fantastic things that the future holds for me, and nothing, not even the goblins, can scare away the love that I have found!
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I Am No Longer Afraid of the Future
Estimated reading time: 2 minutes, 29 seconds