When a book begins with this opening sentence - "Captain Ahab was neither my first husband nor my last" - it is difficult not to continue reading to find out the answers.
Stream of Consciousness!
My random thoughts on Jan, love, grief, life, and all things considered.
Overflowing River
Morning After Henri
The river was full, muddy, and flowing fast on my morning walk. It had overflowed, and the banks were in the paths by the old mill site. After taking the photo and video, a dog walker said, “The river is angry this morning.” I responded, “It’s Mother Nature that is angry. The river is just the messenger!”
NY-NJ Meetup
After the morning grief group I facilitated, I took the train into NYC to meet three people who had lost their spouses. All are part of Soaring Spirits. One was also from NJ, and the other two were from Park Slope in Brooklyn. We walked on the High Line and had dinner at the Chelsea Market. We have agreed to do this on the third Saturday of every month.
Century of Steps
According to my Fitbit, I have walked 10,000 steps for 100 days, an average of 26,141 per day, for a total of 2,614,100 steps. For the same period, I have been averaging 12 miles a day for 1,200 miles. Not bad for a 72-year-old man.
Nat Turner’s Legacy
One hundred and ninety years ago, “Nat Turner, an enslaved American, led about 70 of his enslaved and free Black neighbors in a rebellion to awaken his white neighbors to the inherent brutality of slaveholding and the dangers it presented to their own safety.”
Solar Eclipse
Four years ago, our family gathered in Oregon to watch the solar eclipse. Totality was a spiritual moment like none we had ever felt. Jan and I always wanted to see another total solar eclipse with our family. She may not be with us physically, but her spirit will be with me wherever I go now and forever.
Missing Jan!
Today, I’m missing Jan. She was and still is the light of my life, and I need her to laugh to help me relax.
- I need her to hold my hand while we walk the river trail.
- I need her advice on the proposed improvements to Hanson Park, and I need her support all day and all night.
- I need to sleep with her.
- I need to wake up next to her in the morning.
- I need to love her for eternity.